A Difficult, Blessed Year {Our Exciting News}

A Difficult, Blessed Year

2015 was hard. January brought an infertility diagnosis. February brought surgery for my grandpa to remove his lung cancer. March brought a surgery gone wrong for my aunt, which left us pleading for her life. April brought a positive pregnancy test. May brought lots of puking and anxiety, and on … [Read more...]

When You’re Hoping for Better Days Ahead

When You're Hoping for Better Days Ahead

There I sat, terrified and confused, in a row of church chairs. Awaiting my surgery the next morning, knowing that I had a hemorrhaged tumor in my head. I didn't know if everything was going to be OK, and I didn't understand it.  People gathered around me, prayed for me, tried to keep me distracted, … [Read more...]

Do We Mourn with Those Who Mourn?

Do We Mourn with Those Who Mourn?

As I've walked through the past few months, I've experienced the ugly side of miscarriage. Not the ugly side as far as grief, anxiety, or the pure devastation that comes, but the ugliness in my heart. Wanting to stay home and feel bitter. Anger as I see constant pregnancy reminders everywhere I … [Read more...]

What Our Wedding Vows Really Meant

What Our Wedding Vows Really Meant

Today marks three years with the incredible man I get to call my husband. It hasn't been a particular easy three years, but I'm so thankful to have spent them with him. So today I dedicate this blog post to Kyle . . . Dear Kyle, I look back at pictures, at our starry-eyed 16-year-old selves, … [Read more...]

The Silent Suffering of Miscarriage

The Silent Suffering of Miscarriage

I'll never forget that dark, cold ultrasound room. The teary-eyed, compassionate radiologist. The look of pity in her eyes as she told us that our 10-week-old baby was no longer alive. My midwife told me she was so sorry, and hung up the phone. And so began the hardest week of my life. A week of … [Read more...]